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Well, I can't say nothing hasn't happened.

Yesterday many came over to the house and we all found ourselves at OCB. I wasn't really hankering for some buffet style food but I ate some anyways to appease the masses. Hehe, not really but I ate a little. After OCB we all ended up at the house. Christian finally got his stuff over here and he managed to get a desk from Jill. It's a little freaky b/c people can fit in the top of the hutch LOL. I think Jill had a pretty good fit in after Richard adjusted her legs so that her knees wouldn't stop the door ;p

Other than that I can't really say I've been doing well. I keep feeling like I'm letting it get to me too much. But then I think to myself that it's justified b/c it's dumb behavior? Well not dumb behavior per se but it's sorta like you just keep putting your trust into something only to be let down over and over and over and over again. So much that in the end you think to yourself what the hell did it matter in the first place? Then I sit and think to myself that it did matter to me. It was such an important part of my life that I did care enough to let this happen to me over and over. And it just seems so stupid but I know it's not b/c I cared? Ugh, I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. Just being reduntant. And I sorta lost my train of thought b/c there was a humgous spider in my bathroom. I ran away from the computer until Kris was able to catch it for me. Bottom line? I'm mad and angry at some certain things. And from the way it looks these days that the "change" is here to stay. Why "change?" Because there never was any change. I was just too blind [and still am] to see what the real truth is. I guess one day we all have to face the truth right? It just makes the difference to whether or not you can accept it or not.

No, nothing is wrong with Kris and I. We're happy as clams ;D

Also, again.....apologizes to everyone who came over yesterday and how I was in such a foul mood at that time. It wasn't your fault and I should have contained my anger in a better way. Same with the crying.

Eh, anyways I'm gonna sleep now. Bee-town in the morning!

Oyasuminasai ;]

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Inu Yasha - Ai No Uta [Thanks Chan for finding me this song!]

[ Kono chi ni chikara o | No ni hana o | Kokoro ni ai o... | Nee kono mimi o oshiatete kikoeta inochi no zawameki | Sou oboeteru atatakana kodou ni tsutsumareteta koto | Dare ka no koe mo, dare ka no kizu mo, kikoenai furi o suru | Sonna minikui kao ni damasarenaide | Ima sugu ni ai ni ikite | Kono yo ni umarete | Anata no me ni | Nani o utsushite | Ima kono chi ni chikara o | No ni hana o | Kokoro ni ai o... | Nee kizutsuita sono hane o iyaseru sube sae shirazu ni | Sou doko made mo bokutachi wa aruite mata sore o seoi | Donna jidai mo, donna basho demo tashikana ai wa aru | Dakara furueru koto mo nageki kanashimu koto mo nai | Ai no naka e | Namanurui kaze ni | Utare boku wa | Nani o nokoshite | Ima kono chi ni chikara o | No ni hana o | Kokoro ni ai o... | Soshite | Dare ka no koe mo, dare ka no kizu mo, kikoenai FURI o suru | Sonna minikui KAO ni damasarenaide | Ima SUGU ni ai ni ikite | Kono yo ni umarete | Anata no me ni | Nani o utsushite | Ima nama nerui kaze ni | Utare boku wa | Nani o nokoshite | Kono chi ni chikara o | No ni hana o | Kokoro ni ai o... ]